My very first manic episode...

I had my very first manic episode at like age six or so. I am not sure, all I know is that I was really little and it was either before I started school or when I was in first or second grade. My abusive father told me if I wanted to watch television, that I had to watch what everyone else was watching, and he wouldn't change it special for me just because I was too young to watch what was on the screen. Anyhow, the nightmare on elmstreet was what was playing, and I am afraid of horror movies, and don't watch them still. Well, I didn't watch it all. I covered my eyes when the really scarry parts were coming ahead. I knew where they were and when because the scarry music would play right before the monster came out. Anyhow, after that I would see freddie coming after me every night after I slept. I had bad scarry dreams for weeks on end. My dad and mom wouldn't let me sleep in their bed when I was little. They told me it was all inside my head, and made me go back in my bed. They didn't give me a night light or anything. And, a night light wouldn't even work because I was really scared. In my dreams, I would have night terrors off and on throughout my childhood. I would see a flaming devilish looking skull inside my head. It would dissappear as fast as it reappeared. Right after the night terror, I would hear this devilish evil laugh. Needless to say, my genes are genetic. I have been bipolar for as long as I can remember. I have been pretty terrified for most of my life. My medicine that I am taking right now, beats it back for the most part, and I can live normally, but I don't always live normally. My psychotic episodes come back when my medicine ceases to function.